Tag: kai
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My Ability To Be Cringe š¬
The cringe sensation is our psyche’s version of “soreness.” Like exercising in the gym, that day-after burn is where we facilitate growth. While uncomfortable, if we can withstand that momentary discomfort, the urge to run away “when this doesn’t FEEL GOOD”; that is to say when it doesn’t FEEL FAMILIAR, we can truly learn something […]
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The 5 Stages Of Grief: A Requiem For A Friend
My Best friend Justin Ramos, died on August 9th, 2020. And itās has had a profound effect on my life. The immediate effect was me falling into a deep despair! At the time, I was staying in a homeless shelter in Brooklyn, but in a āgreat placeā mentally. Working a security job and waiting to […]
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Cui bono? Who Benefits?
I’ve reached a point where I know within 5 seconds of someone interacting with me whether I plan on interacting with them in the future or not. I used to second-guess that intuition, but now I let it guide me. Cui Bono – cui boĀ·āno | \ ĖkwÄ-ĖbÅ-(Ė)nÅ: 1: a principle that probable responsibility for an […]
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The Frayed Ends Of Sanity: Or My Mental Health?
Executives, the last couple days I have dealing with a severe bout of depression. Iāve talked about this before but this isnāt the āI might do something terribleā dread but an overwhelming sense of responsibility, mixed with loneliness. On top of that, Iāve been falling out with people I care for left and right, and […]
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“The Assassination Of Jesse James By The Coward Robert Ford” The Prophet, The Coward and The Nobody: An Essay
DIRECTED BY: Andrew Dominik DIRECTOR OF CINEMATOGRAPHY: Roger Deakins SCREENPLAY BY: Andrew Dominik RELEASE: 2007 Intro From the outset of the film Bob and Jesse mirror each other, even if itās a warped reflection. Dark suit, light shirt; Bobās suit is āall over himā buttoned to the top implying a humble, negligent demeanor. He is […]
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Nine To Five Is How You Survive: Life According To Kai
Executives, I quit my job yesterday. Iām going to be honest, I have no immediate prospects. I will be monetizing the blog today, thatās right, weāre selling out, going āBlack Albumāā¦ Not Jay-zā¦ Metallica. Actually, at our level of quality and productivity weāre probably something more of a āLoadāā¦ A bloody discharge of something that […]
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Expectations & Gratitude
When I started this blog I expected to be up long nights, seeing all parts of the world not just the New York City-Metropolitan Area but the World CRAIG! Expectations I would have experiences that would draw people to my blog and accumulate enough traffic that I would be monetized in a couple months and […]
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Young Woman At A Window (Alternate)
A woman, resolved on killing herself goes up to her āfavoriteā window. As she reaches the window she begins tidying up before opening up the window. She then sits in the window sill and begins to have a āsmoke.ā As the woman nears the end of her smoke she looks at the cigarette, itās practically […]
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Kaiās Silver Lining: Rebuilding, Rebranding
BLOGGING AND BLOGGING ABOUT BUILDING MY BLOG, LIFE, AND CAREERĀ A Cluttered Hard Driveā¦ Executives, I just deleted EVERYTHING!ā¦ Before I proceed, I know what Iām about to say is blaspheme to many artists, but I considered it a necessary evil. Iāve spoken, two posts back, about a simplified approach to my creative process. Iāve […]
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National Suicide Hotline/(800) 273-8255Ā
The Blues Executives, Hello! It’s been a been a little while, huh? Well,… I’ve been thinking about killing myself!ā¦ Did I make it weird? Well it’s the most honest I can be with you, which is what I promised from the start of this. I’ve written draft after draft trying to convey what is going […]
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