I really need to get it together… It’s 6:46 and I’m just leaving Queens heading into the City(Manhattan), but I feel great! Morale’s up, work is smooth and my personal pursuits are stimulating if not yielding any results quite yet. But that’s ok, “gotta trust the process.”
I honestly love having my laptop with me everywhere I go. Every time I pull it out I feel like Ernest Hemingway or somebody. Even though I’m pretty sure he had a type writer, not a laptop but who am I to deny the times?
Piggy backing off having laptop everywhere. Not only does it help with being able to get writing done in a less stressful manner, I.e., not having to cram everything into one session, I’m able to get ALL of my “work’ done, or at least get a good portion of it out of the way; Film Editing, Photoshop and Lightroom. I know this isn’t anything new to many of you, but to some it is, and for me it’s a revelation. I can literally upload my photos and/or videos instantly to my computer and work on an idea as soon as it comes to me.
A body in motion
After work I decided to walk around and take some shots. I initially didn’t want to or didn’t quite feel up to it. But after I smoked my first joint I started to loosen up a little but I didn’t get too many shots that I was happy about. I then noticed that I was pretty much standing In the same place for the last twenty minutes and I’m not helping myself by being stagnate. I moved around a bit and started to “create shots” also began to feel a lot less apprehensive and started to just take photos of people without being shy or that feeling that I’m invading their privacy. It felt like I was capturing life and it felt empowering.
It puts the confidence on it’s skin…
I’m starting to feel very comfortable my skin I’m not sure if I’m doing it in spite or because of the blog. But what I do know is that writing is my passion and all other forms of my creativity are an extension of that passion.
Do that S#@t
I honestly recommend to anybody willing to listen, and can’t stress enough how important it is to follow the voice in your head telling you “I think I can do that.” I understand failure, I do it often, especially with this blog, my videos, and overall life. But the difference is I don’t feel defeated anymore. Every time I mess up it’s an opportunity to make micro adjustments and do things better. I look forward to the next opportunity to fail not because I hope to but because it’s a chance to see if I’ve learned my lesson or not.
I originally planned on going into detail about where I am right now in my artistic journey, and particularly my photography but when I got home today I stuffed myself and passed out on my bed, so I will have to save that for tomorrow’s entry folks.
P.S.- Post Script
I was able to upload today’s photos to my computer but with about 366 I still need to go through them, pick the ones I like and edit/correct the one I plan to use. I will make sure to include some of today’s photo’s in the post.
I appreciate anyone who has made it this far. To quote the urban scholar and billionaire, Shawn Corey Carter, “You could’ve been anywhere in the world,(and TECHNICALLY you are, but at the same time) You’re here with me.” And from the bottom of my heart I appreciate it more than any multi-syllable word could express. I Believe In You. I Am Here For You. And As Uncomfortable As This May Make Some, I Have Love For You! I Can’t Wait To Meet You At The Top! ✌🏾🖤