Today is getting off to a rough start. The bus I normally take seemed to not even be running today. (The bus was scheduled for 5:38AM, I got on a different bus at 6:05AM) But anyway I take another bus and get to the Long Island Rail Road, I’m literally flat broke and ask the conductor if I can get on the train without paying this time, he tells me no, pretty flatly, I might add. But I’m able to get on the next one. Now I’m broke, late for work and on top of that I can’t let my managers know about my situation because my phone screen is cracked… I usually clock in at 7AM everyday and have a 15 minute grace period. As I type this I am in Queens still, but on the Long Island Rail Road which is a much faster commute than the subway. With 20 mins to spare, I’m hoping I can make it within the grace period.
One thing to take note of is that I’m not angry or irritable as of yet. I actually feel great! We’ll see how long I can keep that going today.
I made it to work with about 1 minute to spare, LITERALLY but I made it.
Pardon The chaos
This post is all over the place but since I’ve decided I’m taking my laptop with me everywhere I go, including work to document as much as I can, as close to when things happen as possible, I’m confident as I get more comfortable in my writing I’ll start to develop a more concise and “cleaner” style and BLOG.
I Probably Should’ve Prefaced With This…
I woke up at 4:30 today, and as I was preparing to get out of bed I received a notification for an email. Upon opening it I saw that it was a comment for this blog, and quite honestly I was feeling pretty defeated when it came to this blog. I honestly began to think that I must’ve made the wrong decision. But upon reading the comment, and as generic as it may have been I got the greatest surge of energy and felt the motivation I needed to keep writing. “Love this bro. Straight Fire 🔥. Good luck 🙌🏽 -VINNY.” I appreciate you Vinny whoever you are.
I Think I Get It Now
I think the fact that just one person let me know, somebody IS watching and paying attention. Is more than enough for me. I’ve downloaded Gary Vee’s “Crush It” book recently and have been listening to it religiously. And it in it he speaks to the point that someone building a business or brand shouldn’t be preoccupied with the amount of people who are a part of the growing community as much as one should worry about the strength of those individual connections and using THOSE relationships as a foundation to build upon. And even though I’ve been hearing that message day in and day out for the last 2 weeks I needed an actual “Life example” to go off and have an appreciation for what that means.
I’m a fan of all things underground and independent. The smaller the circle the more concentrated the love and I believe that in regards to everything in life. But for whatever reason I’ve been paying attention to other bloggers and the things they say, but after a little break from trying to write and watching a reading blogs/vlogs and videos on the subjects I’ve noticed that for the most part most so-called bloggers follow the same FORMULAIC process that the last “successful” blogger used. Which I’m not against, imitation is the ultimate form of flattery but, having said that there seems to be a lack of originality. So, I’ve decided I’m just going to do it my way. I don’t care for fame or money. I can pay my rent on my day job and side jobs and am content with just the artistic pursuit. So… eff the rules!
I’ve been working on my photography more lately, mainly the editing process. I’m really excited about it but, I’ll save that for tomorrow’s entry.
Update on the Day’s Mood
Still zen… unbothered actually.
I appreciate anyone who has made it this far. To quote the urban scholar and billionaire, Shawn Corey Carter, “You could’ve been anywhere in the world,(and TECHNICALLY you are, but at the same time) You’re here with me.” And from the bottom of my heart I appreciate it more than any multi-syllable word could express. I Believe In You. I Am Here For You. And As Uncomfortable As This May Make Some, I Have Love For You! I Can’t Wait To Meet You At The Top! ✌🏾🖤